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Really don't understand why this nigga kalled me at fckin 8 in the a.m like who the hell does tht ? Then txxts me after wen I dnt answer ? Nd asking me at nite "wats good 4 the nite ?' Like nigga no its a dubbb !!!! Sheesh !!!
Eva since he drove me to a motel its ova for that like I dnt want nuttin to do wit him ...I don't even wanna see him..he wanna beat it nd he's not going to . I'm a virgin nd I'm fckin staying that way ! Idc how long it takes or how much ppl talk abt how I'm too ol to keep it , I'm staying this way nd I'm fine with it ..NO need for rush ..ima just wait for marriage ..I might as well .I'm almost there ! Enyways point is I dnt wnt him kalling or txxtin me ..I'm abt to odee on him deadass smmfh !now he dead had the nerve to say lemme wake that ass up , u might like it -_- are u fckin kiddin me !! Smh I got no more to say

dahmm ...

It crushes my heart to the very end to hear nd see my moms feeling down after the everything that has happened.. But I truely don't feel like that asshole deserves her nd to see her there in bed lonely sad kills every bit of me ..makes me wanna do the worst to him ..I believe he been wanted to leave ..that was jus a dahm excuse like my friend shenee sed because a dahm year ?? No card ? No ily 's ? No flowers? No thankyous after eating not 1 meal she has made ? Dique he's like that , dique showing no emotion -_- nigga it doesn't take emotion to say thankyou or atleast to try smmfh , I swear I wanna drown his clothes in bleach or do some next shit but my moms wud only be more hurt cuss of what I'm doing ..smh how dare him tell her we shudnt be together with excuses of why ..cuss if he cared he wud try no matta what..he just wants that fast life with drinking nd woman smh ! He kan do what he wnts but its not rite how he lead her on smh it just aint ..ughh I hate chu men ! I swear ! I knt take this ! ( Not all of u ) most of you ..cuss they're are great men out there nd I need one sent out to my moms ASAP !!!

Dear Isalynn,

i kant wait for you to get here ! ^.^

why wasssssap :)

Raimerr ??rayy? Dhaa rapper ?the one who reads my blogs? The dominican one the acts black?the onee who made a song widd me ?thee one who stays watching the ball game ? Dha one who sed he gunna rip out my nose ringg ?the onee who motivated me to rap nd didn't judge me ? The one who I feel like I know forever ? The one who I went to skool wit but dnt rememba? The onee who I got along widd wayy to fast like we known eachother 4 mad long ? Yeaa I kno em whyy whassssap ?

smh

dnt wanna rap nomore smh
if i was a celebrity idk how much critism i'd be able to take

this shet had me ROLLINNNNNNNNNNNNNN lmaoooooooooooooooo

"he was ALMOST the perfect guy."

Little by little it breaks my heart cause fernando was like the perfect guy for me but I'm starting not to like em as much as wouldve loved to..he would always call like a bf 's supposed to txxt me nd make time for me like a good guy but my feelings come for a moment nd leave the next ..its switches back nd forth like a soccer team nd it makes me question myself ..it makes me question if he's someone to settle into a relationship with .shenee is like my other half I swear wen she saids " I don't see it ." She knows what she's talking abt ..it happen wit 2 guys nd she knew it wudnt work out .. Nd its true I cut the guy off from ihop nd now I'm starting to feel ima have to let fernando go ..I was thinking abt letting it fade itself away but I know the RIGHT thing to do is to be honest nd tell him the truth no matter how hard it may be for me ..nd I have to do it as soon as possible ..with no regrets, no worries nd leaving him with the fact that we can always be friends no matterwhat

P.s : perfect guy , just not in my world - aventura ( romeo voice ) : /

nov.7th

Here sitting chillinn wit my stepbrova ,stepmoms,nd father watching some korney dominican show "old dominican" people watch ..Still stuck on that 16 nd pregant show,like that nigga dead bought himself 80 dollar pair of nike dunks instead of the baby's stroller -_- ..like he dnt realize is not abt him anymore is abt the baby ..nd nigga seen is daughter be born but still went the same day in the hospital to be out with his friends smmfh , that just totally baffled me !

Enywayss still stuck wit this cold nd crazy muscus in me ...ughh its jus killin me ..smh ..I can breathe alil betta tho ..how I had a dream that ray had a babymama nd gave birth to a little girl nd made a hott song to her being bored nd he kept shaking me telling me I gotta listen to it cause he was soo hipe lol ..

But yea enywaysss .. I gotta find a way to let of fernando .think he geddin type attached nd I dnt think I like him anymore : /

HectelyStarrVerass :)

Just convinced my stepsister into making a blogspot .. I don't know why but yesterday for some reason I felt more drawn nd closer to her as werid as it sounds, I know our past was bad nd stuff but a perfect friendship has to has its falls to become better sometimes , not always true but really is at the same time if you think about It ..nd I know her moms can be a handful sometimes but she's different from her moms ..she's more patient ..calm nd understandable ..I kinda like the new mom look nd attitude she has ..it brings out a better character abt urself nd her daughter, like I really do love my step sister ..guess all these years weren't for nothing ..we developed something..nd I do remember when my hair would be mistreated ..nd people in her house hold would speak about it ..she would atleast defend me nd I liked that a lot abt her . If she's reading this ILY 3

bestfriends x3

throw bak

my eyebrows lookin EXTRA perfect in this pic =]

NOV_5th

So I just finished eating white rice nd salami nd I'm soooo full ..smh ..I got the only iduess smh ..came also from buying that big , well not like a foam board but the flat large paper to write down the new technique I came up with that help me out with the rhymes with new words nd all lat ..hard to explain but yea that..lml ..I was so amazed that day at ray how he was able to memorize his verses from the top of his head like I was deadass impressed :D ..elliot was so nice nd got everyone breakfast ..they all made me feel like there's nothing to be afraid of nd that they dnt judge cause we there to help eachother out nd teach eachother how to become better ..but I'm so used to like writing things abt love nd serious stuff that idk if I'd be able to come up with rhymes abt ppl comparing money ,shooting nd etc ... But its always worth a try , u neva know ..unlike people that douted me ..they took me serious nd put a hand there to help me ..from that point on they earned my respect ..my friends liked the song nd stuff nd they forwarded to other people.. Now they boys askin for me to rap with them ..I was like nah I found my spot ... I like were I started ..nd plus eric is there nd everyone I know so I rather keep it that way ..nd ray is so talented ..I caught myself shocked at how good he sounded on the cd in elliots car ..it was so clear nd perfect nd on beat ..his flow nd the way he raps is nice (thumbs up ) he reminds me of camron nd the game mixed together ..it just sounds right ..lml ..hope I get up there too ..lol
Is like we both clicked nd were mad cool like that as werid as it sounds ..he's mad cool ...ima have fun working wit him :) .. Now I know I sed I wrote a novel nd was gunna blog it but I thought abt what I re-wrote nddd I decided not to put it up ..wen I go thru my emotional moments I say alittle too much so its quiet for that one lmao ... BUT now I'm tired ass hell ..ima take my nap nd wait for my bestfriend cause we gunna bake a cake :) nd yes we speak again I'm so happy ..we made a promise to never go the night unto the morning being mad at eachother no matter what <3

Knt afford to lose you , I love you my sista diana Arroyo x3

Right Here - RAYBOP ft.(Steph)

http://www.hotnewhiphop.com/en/play/s/d665630-110098/

RAYBOP : )

IFCKS wit him no lie =]